2000-04-06 14:25:49 god, i suck. i'm so lame sometimes. I totally let everyone down. i suuuuuck. I work for this record label here in boston, doing their website and stuff, and I was supposed to do the website for one of their bands, and I should have been working on it and stuff but i've been so busy at work and trying to fit time in for my writing and stuff that i haven't gotten around to it. so i just found out that they had a friend of theirs do the whole thing and they sent me the url and it's soo fucking good. it's way better than anything I would have been able to do anyways. and i'm sure it's not anything they did b/c they were upset or unhappy with me, but i just feel like i spend a lot of time doing internet related activities, but i'm not actually good at any of them. like I keep practicing and learning new stuff and i'm waiting for the learning curve to start paying off, and it hasn't. it never does. it sucks. and it's related to work, i usually feel pretty useless around here compared to everyone else, but i try, and i learn different things and try to find places to fit in and be useful. but nope. i still suck. basically i'm really good at doing crappy grunt work that anyone's mom could do. it's sucky. i design a lot of web pages, but they're all mostly text, with a decided lack of web graphics because i can't do that kind of thing. not like her. she is so good. this is me all sad. and speaking of sad, andrew told me this morning that sometimes he gets really sick of diaryland, working on it all the time. and that is bad! no one should get sick of diaryland. so email him and tell him thank you so much for diaryland becuase it's wicked cool, and probably not enough people do that. k thank you very much & credits music: "the world has turned me and left me here" |
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